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[.....] Captain... Hazama...

But that makes no sense! If your past self was around when Terumi was, how were they able to exist together?

We can both exist by co-existing. [He'll just point to his head again.]

All in here. Of course, I expected you to find that surprising. You're not suppose to know me after all.

Of-- Of course I know you! [Just because it's Kazuma, don't think she'll suddenly go easy!] I knew Kazuma... but even if he isn't there, you're still Captain Hazama, and... [Words, where are they.] And there's nothing about you that can be good!

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You know Terumi. You know Hazama as Terumi. [...] And I can't really argue with that accusation. Terumi's will is my own.

I...

[Of course she knows that. Hazama and Terumi are both one in the same, and Kazuma became this entity long ago. Right?

But now that Terumi wasn't there, did any of that matter? Was... this sense of distrust and hate directed at the wrong person?

No.]

...that doesn't matter.

[It doesn't matter. Like a lot of things, she's learned, none of it mattered in the end. If there's one thing she's learned, it's to never trust her enemies so easily. When she sees this man, it is not Kazuma.]

That doesn't matter to me. His will is your own, you say? Then you're just the same.

[When she sees this person, she sees the painful memories she had to endure both in their world and here. She remembers the words and the effects she witnesses of those who have been hurt. She feels the hatred and pain and agony that she herself had to put up with him.

No remorse. There's... nothing. And if his will is his own, why should she feel it?

She has never felt so much anger centered on one person.

Is that really you, Kazuma?]

Don't act like you're any different from him!

Aw and here I thought at least telling you Terumi wasn't around would make you feel better. Either way, I'm not surprised by your reaction.

[If he was feeling anything towards Noel's remark, he wasn't showing it. There was always that mental block that stopped him from getting too emotional, or personal with people...except he...didn't have that mental block this time. He'll still try to shrug it off anyway. And yet...the memories of those times when Noel helped his more pitiful self were still there, whether he wanted to forget or not.

All the things he could say to her...but was it really worth it? It's not like she'd remember anyway if she ever went home.]

How's your head by the way?

It's fine. [You can thank Nala's healing powers for that, ala Nami. The thought of her friend crosses her mind, but before she comes close to opening her mouth about it... no. It's not a good idea. Don't mention Nami.]

Just... stay out of my business from now on! I don't want to have anything to do with you. [Harsh, flat, and to the point. Since when has she gotten this way? Is it her only line of defense when dealing with him? It's... weird. When she speaks, the words that flow out feel unnatural to her for some reason.

Like before.

It's always been him.]

[...What happened to being the person he could go to talk to? No, it's...it's already in a past now.]

That...might be a little difficult to do in this place. And is that really how you're going to treat someone who went out of their way to make sure you got some help? As if you would have bothered to mention anything that would have worried your friends.

Went out of their way...? [Oh, that is it.] You were the one that attacked me! I... back there, I thought you were going to...!

[Take her away? Kill her? Maybe both?]

--Ugh! O-On top of that, you lied about all of it! [All patience is out the window, so much so that even the dog looks unsure.] Why should I treat you nicely!?

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You thought I was someone else. I tried to be friendly, but you were dead set on believing I wasn't there to help you. [He never did attack her until he felt like he had no other option]

Perhaps it's because I didn't make myself clear enough? Though I doubt anything I said then would have changed your mind anyway. Your head would have been spared at least....Still, [a small chuckle] it was rather funny watching your reactions.

[Who is she kidding? She will build herself to be as strong as she can, but when the right thing is pushed it all comes crashing down. Noel tries, dammit, but she has reached such a point of frustration that she can hardly take things anymore, let alone Hazama's taunting.]

Shut up! [If this were less serious, it could easily be compared to schoolyard bullying...] Just go away and leave me alone already!

... [Agh, you are getting to his conscious man :|. Why couldn't he find her suffering right now just as enjoyable like before?...Or maybe he just never really found it as entertaining when things got extreme. Or maybe it's because of those memories of her always wanting to help him and now he's treating her like shit is eating at him.]

Hey...I'm sorry, all right? I just wanted to see how you were doing. [...Dammit, he's actually apologizing? He just did didn't he? Terumi wouldn't like this, he really wouldn't and that makes Kazuma nervous, even if Terumi wasn't here to tell him how stupid he was.]

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You... what? [No, really. What did you just say?]

Edited 2012-07-27 02:40 (UTC)

I said I just wanted to see how you were doing. [What apology?]

That's not what you said. [Stare.] You... You apologized.

[He looks off to one side.] Yea, I did. What of it?

[No comprende.] ...why?

What do you mean why? [This is...making him a little uneasy. A part of his brain was telling him to shut the hell up and go back to mocking her, but another says this is wrong. The latter was winning without Terumi scolding him and it was...really putting Kazuma in a weird position where he was actually in full control.]

...Maybe I just haven't quite forgotten everything you did for me the last time I was here.

[Oh, great. And you know what that does? It makes her uneasy.

Is it a trick? It has to be a trick! All this time, even supposedly without Terumi, he's been nothing but ruthless in his tormenting of her. Had he finally reached a breaking point? ...did that even make any sense?

Kazuma? Captain Hazama? She doesn't know. She doesn't understand.]

What... I did? But I... I didn't... [Do anything.]

Oh, I don't know about that...you were rather persistent about helping me, even when I ignored all of your constant pestering. [Just like Trinity...]

I still don't quite understand why you bothered to help me. Your efforts here don't exactly change history.

I... [Come on, Noel. Get back into the game.] I know that! Of course I know that! People come and go here all the time, and it's... sad. [Tsubaki... Makoto...]

But just sitting around and constantly reminding yourself of that won't do you any good. If there's something I can do to protect someone, I'll make sure I try everything I can!

[...] So... So that's why I wanted to help you.

Heh. I was right to call you hopeless. You can't really help someone who wants fate to run its course. I never would have said it to you then but...[He raises his hand, summoning the familiar snake-like chain of Ouroburos as it coils around him.]

I welcome everything that Terumi has given to me.

[Guard is up. It may be Kazuma, but deep down, she knows it's not Kazuma Kazuma. No. This is entirely different. This is something she has no idea on how to handle, and maybe... maybe that's what makes it so terrifying.]

Why, Kazuma? All Terumi wanted to do was to use you! This... None of this had to happen!

[He laughs] Why? Because he gave me a purpose! It doesn't matter to me how he chooses to use me. I finally have a reason to live because of him.

I don't ever want to return to being that lost and miserable child. I gladly accept this future, with all the good and the bad that comes with it.

[...] Even at the cost of others? Of Miss Litchi? Of Tsubaki?

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